more to life

i know i havent written for ages. that’s because i realized our landlord(s) is a cheap cheap person. apparently, the LL refused to fix that rip just because they dont feel like it.. and LL has apparently refused several request to wire up the apartment for cable and broadband services.

ugh. i want to move out.

ANYWAYS! i didnt get the job at pinic i was really disappointed BUT! with every down, you gotta have an up right?? i got this FREAKING awesome job at this really poshy restaurant rated as one of the best in melbourne. though im only working as breakfast staff (there are 3 different types, breakfast, lunch and dinner but if you’re good, you can be interchangeable), ifind it all so fun. maybe because i’ve forever been looking for waitressing jobs because job hunting can be such a vicious cycle. people want experience but how the hell am i going to get experience if you dont give me any opportunity to get some? but yes. hopefully, i would not get fired. but unfortunately, because i’m limited by the aus government to only work 20 hours per week which sucks balls. and i have another job at the weekend. i can only work 2 days this sucks. i hate being limited by life just because i cant afford shit. im getting so stressed out by the possibility of not being able to finish uni because i may not be able to afford my uni fees. so much so, im now convinced i wont be able to do honors even if i can.

i still got another interview this friday which i’ve low expectations for. i always have low expectations anyways cause rejection is a bitch which occurs 80% of the time.

i barely have anytime to head out during the weekends to the city or anywhere and take pics of streets arts anymore or really do anything.

and i still dont know why im still job hunting (cash in hand job!!)..
always looking for something more, you know? i dont believe what we see is what we get. surely there is always more to life.

no more denial

on my last day at GJ, guess who the hell i saw..

NICHOLAS CAGE!!!!!

yes, im fucking serious. but no, i didnt take any pics or shit cause i was working, thus it’s very unprofessional and also cause he was like a freaking ghost. he came in and went back to his car to wait. his wife was buying and waiting for the drinks. it was all so celebrity ish like, the whole shades so hopefully noone will recognize me thing. yea right.

anyways, GJ decided to dismissed over half of its employees, including me due to financial reasons. i was kinda really upset abt it but you know me, i dont mope around long abt it or stay in denial for too long soooooo.. i have hopefully got another job. i start this fri as a trial. so i do well, i get it. if i dont, i suck balls and gotta find another one. poo.

Alice in Wonderland at St. Kilda

dreaming of s’pore

is it sad to know that i still havent gotten internet?

i’ve been dreaming of going back to spore so much lately, i think im going crazy. however the thought of not having anyone to go out with and just be drunk or anyone to take care of me at all is depressing. well, none of my bffs are coming, although im heading to m’sia to see one.  but just knowing that everyone has just grown out of it, not that i have or havent. i just wanna party up a storm when i can and that’s the time. and none of my other close friends in spore are party party people.

bleh.

to add on, life is semi peaceful ish except that hello cruel world, my dad may be jobless and then we will not be able to pay any of my school fees which means i can get expelled out of the uni. how great. seriously, with the total amt of fucking money owed to my dad, it can not only pay for my school fees and half of my sister’s as well.  i feel really angry and upset because i know it will somehow not be repaid and seriously, what the fuck is he doing with his life? he is approaching fucking mid life crisis age and what the hell does he do at home instead of going out and working his ass off like the rest of us? FUCK NO. he sits at home, plays his dumbass shit computer games and not help out around the apartment at all. he is so selfish. i hope he has fucking fat insurance so when he dies, the pay out will go to everyone he owes money to.

life is a fuck shit hole. cant wait to head back to spore and give a piece of my mind. and spend shit loads of money in 2 weeks. what can i do with a 1000 aud?