dreaming of s’pore

is it sad to know that i still havent gotten internet?

i’ve been dreaming of going back to spore so much lately, i think im going crazy. however the thought of not having anyone to go out with and just be drunk or anyone to take care of me at all is depressing. well, none of my bffs are coming, although im heading to m’sia to see one.  but just knowing that everyone has just grown out of it, not that i have or havent. i just wanna party up a storm when i can and that’s the time. and none of my other close friends in spore are party party people.

bleh.

to add on, life is semi peaceful ish except that hello cruel world, my dad may be jobless and then we will not be able to pay any of my school fees which means i can get expelled out of the uni. how great. seriously, with the total amt of fucking money owed to my dad, it can not only pay for my school fees and half of my sister’s as well.  i feel really angry and upset because i know it will somehow not be repaid and seriously, what the fuck is he doing with his life? he is approaching fucking mid life crisis age and what the hell does he do at home instead of going out and working his ass off like the rest of us? FUCK NO. he sits at home, plays his dumbass shit computer games and not help out around the apartment at all. he is so selfish. i hope he has fucking fat insurance so when he dies, the pay out will go to everyone he owes money to.

life is a fuck shit hole. cant wait to head back to spore and give a piece of my mind. and spend shit loads of money in 2 weeks. what can i do with a 1000 aud?